“Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.” – C. S. Lewis
I read the quote above this morning in one of my daily meditation books. As far as I am concerned, I have to begin relying on God anew not just at the beginning of each new day since I often forget the presence of Spirit multiple times a day! I am grateful that today’s quote came back to me just as I started slipping in patience and kindness during a service call about my computer printer.
I had already spent two hours on the phone troubleshooting the problem with the technical support guy, and he was really terrific: kind, patient, polite, fairly knowledgeable. But it was I who finally realized what the problem probably was based on prior experience and logic, but I had to request to speak with a supervisor to approve the remedy. My solution would cost the company, HP (Hewlett Packard)—I love referring to that company that way, just another reminder of Spirit 😊—money, while it would keep me from having to purchase a new printer just because some think my printer is too old (fours years). It has been working fine until I’d put in a new printer cartridge received directly from HP, yet they were trying to deny their responsibility.
After two hours in my office on the phone (when I should have been working my job), having drank all my water, needing to pee, and getting hungry, I didn’t appreciate the HP supervisor not taking responsibility for the issue. I did get what I asked for, as well as agreed, that if the remedy didn’t work, I was resigned to letting it go and purchasing a new printer. Still, the supervisor could’ve have been better in providing customer service, so I found myself interrupting and correcting him, and starting to raise my voice.
Then, I caught myself. Well, I think Spirit was the one. It nudged me by having me remember the quote above, and I immediately switched gears lowering my voice, etc. I was grateful to not lose my cool and I was grateful the supervisor agreed to send a new cartridge (next day business no less!).
Another reading this morning reminded me that my practice is not to become perfect but to accept and love myself just as I am. I can report that I didn’t beat myself up for starting to slip in my demeanor with the supervisor, so my practice has helped me no doubt.
I always have the choice to start anew with Spirit any time, and while I have the willingness, sometimes I do need Spirit to remind me. I am grateful that It does.